Friday, May 29, 2009

the things i actually think about...

Sometimes I think about things and I wonder if people around me think that same things. I often wonder what animals are thinking. It is funny how they watch tv or seem as though they are listening to what we say. They like attention and uusually are very happy when their owners come home. I wonder if they wonder why they are in a house full of humans, or where their friends are on the outside, or why the house is such a mess? I also wonder if they long to do bigger things like be on TV or go to the store.
Has your pet ever just sat there and stared at you and looked sad? Has your pet ever bothered you to the point where you had to put them back in the cage or go to another room? What were they thinking in those moments and what are their deepest, darkest wishes? I actually think about these things all the time...lol

peace love joy
savannah flower

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. . . all for me . . .

Part of being a Libra is realizing when your life is out of balance. The slightest tip in our scales can result in a big explosion. When we start new projects sometimes we tend not to finish them because they unbalance the scales and we start to realize that our life is no longer in balance.

Its time I started to focus on myself. I can't have someone always completely tipping my scales way out of wack. That was ridiculous and now I sit back and laugh about how some people were right, I was being the stupid friend. But now that is over. I am back on track.

My scales are in balance...I took all the bullshit off the other scale and now it feels as though a weight was lifted off of me. If I'm not working hard this summer, then I'll be playing hard with the people that matter most. I am second to none....its all for me <3

peace love joy
savannah flower

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

the craziest industry alive...

So i may sit down and ask myself, "yo. what did you just get yourself into?" Are you ready to dive into the lime light in front of millions of people and show them your inside. The answer is yes. Who was I meant to be? Someone extremely big. I just joined on production with "We Know TV" which is a TV pilot about me and another girl named Raven and we are going to be the two hosts. I will also be doing celebrity and designer events. I ask myself, where did all this great stuff come from. And the answer was God.

I'm going to the top and I'm taking my people's with me. I'm in love with the entertainment industry. It is probably one of the craziest but I could not be any happier with my crazy lifestyle.

peace love joy
savannahflower

Monday, May 25, 2009

finally got a life

LOL so i think my "depression" or whatever you want to call it came from me just living life at a standstill....But NOW...i finally got my life on track. I have about 3 to 4 photoshoots for the next two weeks and hopefully I will begin filming in the next one to two weeks for a film which my cousin is starring in. I am so excited to have finally gotten a life.
As crazy and funny as it sounds I am 19 now and although some would call that young, a career as an actress or model is very important in your youth so you have to get started early. I was sitting at home, bored to death, watching hundreds of other people on the TV screen with their beautiful careers and it was time to finally get my own. I was focusing on the non-important parts of my life and getting upset over them when I should have just looked at the bigger picture and said, hey FUCK THIS SHIT (which was my original attitude toward bullshit).

I would like to thank GOD first and foremost (points to the sky) and my parents and my family because they are amazing. I would also like to thank my friends and my second family Eve and Al Rodriguez becaue they have been there for me thru thick and thin. (And when I am finally accepting my award for best actress ever in life, i will say...) I would like to thank *OP* cause we the bomb and we always have been =] MWAH!! <3

peace.love.joy
savannahfuckinflower

Sunday, May 24, 2009

so what do you do when your life is in shambles...

What do you do when your life is in shambles? I finally figured out the answer. You go to God and its not like I haven't been here before and gotten better with his help.
When you get older, your life falls into a different type of shambles, you now have to do things on your own and make choices for yourself. I simply have to pick up the pieces and start over from scratch. I don't really mind doing it because I know that once I do, I will be back to the same old me. People don't realize that a little prayer or even a big one can really do wonders for your life.

Today even though the weather is horrible, I am inside feeling much brighter and happier. Things are happening in my life that I need to be thankful for. I'm proud to be Tiffany Trent or Savannah Flower lol. I am proud to be who I am and have gone thru what I went thru to make me the person that I am today.

What I need to realize is that life is a process in which you are always and constantly evolving. I am someone different than I was yesterday and this person is much better =].

peace.love.joy.
savannah flower

Saturday, May 23, 2009

...so you know my next move huh?

So many people think that they know me so well to the point where they tell me what they think I am going to do next. The point is that they are ALL wrong. I don't even know my next move. The safest thing to say is that only God knows and even he is wondering why I am moving so fast and without reason. In life we depend on those around us to help us get through the day to day struggles but the truth is the word depend is a strong one. You cannot depend on anyone or anything. You cannot even depend on tomorrow.
So what to do now? Now that you just realized that you are all alone in your little capsule which you call your human body. A body with a timed destruction date. The one thing we can depend on in life is death because it is the only thing certain for each person.

So if you know me so well........tell me what I am going to do next.....

peace.love.joy
savannah flower

Friday, May 22, 2009

....you walk

.you walk around like you're the boss

..you walk wherever your feet will take you

...you walk to her house and do what you please

....you walk to his house to vent about your problems

.....you walk to the corner and back to get some fresh air

......you walk up to the bar and demand a drink

.......you walk in and out of my life

........you walk ALL OVER people

.......................................................................................................but you will not step on me

(c) savannahflower 2009

peace.love.joy.

The best descriptions of love

"Love is the pain that that is internal. It can feel like fire or needles or sometimes even a knife paining you from the inside. It always hurts no matter what you do but somehow it works because its uniqueness comes from its irony. Since when is something painful beautiful?"
-Shaquan Sheridan

"Love is the un dying passion to be with someone and a want to be with them for the rest of your life. When you cannot picture your life without someone then you know that you are in love."
-Tieani Martinez

"Love was the death of my ego."
-Craig Moore

"I honestly don't think I can put it into words but I know what it feels like. I feel like you know the moment you fall in love with someone."
-Jazmyn Thompson

"Love is the total transference of one's inner self to a land of utopia to a place so permanent that one's mind, body and soul has a constant need for another..."
-Eric Smith

"True love only comes from God so there is no way on earth that any human can explain it because honestly we don't really know it."
-Cienna Ramone

"Love is when the thought of a person makes you want to laugh, cry, smile, sing in the rain, and sit in solitude all in one. You laugh because this person brings joy to your life. You cry because you are worried about this person. You smile because you don't really know what exactly to feel. You sing in the rain because you sometimes have not a care in the world except that person. You sit in solitude so you can experience these feelings all in one while you have that thought about that person."
-Jeremiah Harris

"Love is the only emotion in this world that would literally beat you up and knock you down without you noticing. It's more than the butterflies in your stomach but the two heartbeats that are in sync with one another. Let's not forget about the ride or die aspect. You would do anything for the person you love. Love is a constant smile on your face knowing that someone is happy with you no matter what; flaws and all. Love is not necessarily your soul mate but your better half."
-Kristen Douthit

"Love is fictionary."
-Julia Costa

"Love is when your heart can't heal from the loss of someone."
-Ian John

"Love is the bottomless feeling that you never want to go away. It makes you all super warm on the inside when you think of him and you never want to let him go when you're with him cause you want the feeling to last forever."
-Courtney Morgan

"Love is outside of time, just like space. Pointless yet there for a reason which we have not yet discovered."
-Angela Black

"Love is like having a child. It grows inside and then after 9 months it needs to be taken out."
-Taren Jodie

"Love is a self-sacrificing compassionate form of trust and faith."
-Nickolas Mitchell

"Love is getting a 1.5 on your report card and smiling. You feel dumb as shit but you are happy with what you got."
-Deron Hogans

more to come...check back
peace.love.joy
savannah flower

What is love really?

In high school love was something you claimed after a couple of months of dating. One person would say it and gradually the other person would say it as well and all would be good until the problems arrived. After a couple of months trying to get thru these problems, they would break up tragically and say they just weren't meant for each other. But what happened to the love? That couple would either find new counterparts or get back together and try again. So someone tell me what is love really? And when does it happen? And when do you realize that you are in love? Does it hit you like a ton of bricks or do you realize more and more everyday?

Sometimes people confuse love with the feeling after like. So what is this stage in between like and love? What can you call it? What do you do when you get that urge to say "I love you" but you are not sure if you are truly in love? What if you love someone for that moment but you know that later on you may not love them in the moment?

You love your friends and you love your family but how does that love differ from the love that you have with your counterpart? Or does if even differ? Love involves a deep understanding of one another, the willingness to communicate, the loyalty of a lion, the honesty of committment and your whole heart.

So someone tell me, if you are missing one of these things then are you not in love? Can you fall in love instantly? Can love at first site happen? Can you love someone and not know it? Apparently the human condition is way to complicated to figure out any of these questions. So someone tell me, in your own words.....what is love, really?

peace.love.joy.
savannah flower

My Introduction//I guess

I just started thing blog cause clearly its too tiring to write shit anymore. Before I really get into this blog I want the world to know that I am a very deep dark person sometimes, therefore some of the things I write may be a little disturbing. That is kind of like a disclaimer I guess. lol. Today is friday but i happen to be inside like a loser lol maybe because I went to sleep at 7am and woke up at 3pm. My sleeping schedule is all fucked up. It's kind of hard letting the whole world into your business but I think I am going to have to get used to it because I am clearly destined to be a big star one day lol. This is all for now, I may come back later and fill you in with what else has happened.
peace.love.joy.
savannah flower